bellaphotography

okay... so I was in clothing and textiles class this semester (and those who know me personally will know that that is a definite contradiction in terms lolz) and I made myself a jean skirt... it took me forever because the damned thing did not want to be straight!! *huff huff huff huff* but eventually it finally submitted to me and allowed me to finish it.... adorable thing that it is, although I'm gonna fool around with it more and add stuff on and stuff like that, but I got 100/100 on it!! :excited: also I just had a couple of books plopped onto my lap... *examines books* Bastard vol. 1 and Sengoku Nights vol. 1.... hmmm... that'll take a

...hate living ...hate thinking ...hate existing ...hate being confused ...hate being pushed away ...hate wishing ...hate dreaming ...i just hate things at this particular moment :raincloud: -sam

yesterday I went to see a psychiatrist, and for the first time EVER, a mental health specialist seemed to actually take me seriously!! :excited: she put me on anti-depressants and I am to see her again in a couple of weeks to adjust the dosage. aaaanyway... yesterday I was riding the bus from the clinic and for a few minutes there, I was 100% free of depression and anxiety, and let me tell you this (if you don't know already) that when you are depressed constantly for about 6 or more years and then suddenly you are 100% free of that depression, even for a few moments, those moments are  BLISS  and the world looks, feels, and smells different